I read an interesting quote the other day,
~ “We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection.”
As a new blogger, I’ve discovered perspiration is required to taste life twice — more than I ever imagined. I can’t say I actually enjoy writing, so why put myself through it?
I had to consider. Why continue to blog now that we’re home and have our child in our arms? Why is it important for me to chronicle the days of our lives? Do I have anything to say that hasn’t already been said a thousand times?
The easy answer is because I’m overflowing with inspiration since God placed this little cherub in our hearts and home. His grace is manifested in my life continually as I attempt, through imperfect human-ness, to mother this precious little one. And believe me, I’m noticing. I’m nothing apart from grace. He covers my inadequacies and blesses my efforts day by day in order to preserve His plan for this child — just as He does with each of us. How humbling it is to be part of that.
I want to proclaim His amazing works in my life from the highest mountaintop — I’m talking about everyday miracles here. Did you get that?
That’s how I see my life — a string of miracles. Maybe it’s always been that way, but I’m keenly aware of it now and I want to share it for God’s glory.
And, because I know how fleeting the moments are, I want to fully live in each one — with fresh realization of its preciousness. Writing about the little things seems to heighten my awareness of them and I want to be fully aware this go-round. I don’t want to miss a thing.
I’ve found that when I take time to put into words (and pictures) the moments of our lives — when I’m able to capture them and put them on a page — I can, in a sense, preserve them. Each time I read those words and look at those pictures, I get to taste and savor God’s amazing provision and blessing in my life again and again. I get to celebrate life. And family. And motherhood.
Lastly, blogging allows me to share the flavors of our life with others — like multiplying joy. With gladness will I do this for Umma and Appa and all the people who came before me in my daughter’s life: Hye Jin, the social worker who lovingly handled Sarang’s case ♥; Min Hee, the director of the SWS Korean adoption agency; other social workers and caregivers who knew our little Baby Love… These are the people who loved her first — they care what happens to her and want to see her do well. They need to know she is loved. There is one less orphan in the world today thanks to their kind advocacy and devotion to their work. My words are only a token of the gratitude I feel for their part in this wonderful thing called adoption.